Perhaps you could change that? Maybe blogging about your experience and tips and tricks you've picked up will help other women in the future in your situation, and give you something to do and keep your spirits up when you're not feeling so great. All the best for starting your chemo, my step-aunt started hers just about 3 weeks ago (breast cancer too, just like yours. Virtually undetectable with NO family history). Kick that cancer in the butt, blondie!